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~Just A Teenage Girl~

 I have the world on my shoulders
I don’t know how long I’ll hold
I’m not weak enough to be fragile
Or strong enough to be bold
I’m a ticking bomb
Proceed with caution
I’m a hot volcano
Ready for eruption
I’m a tiny child
Hanging from a rope
I’m a childless mother
And I’m quickly losing hope
I can’t hold on much longer
This pressure is way too great
I’m just a teenage girl
With a forever dying fate
My life is just so crazy
I jump so I could fall
I send out cries for help
But I know that no one will answer my call
I’m not creative
But in my mind I can create
A hell of happiness
And a death of living hate
You may think I’m crazy
You should walk a day in my shoes
If you don’t understand what I’m saying
You’ve passed up all my clues
I just told you my story
I hope it’s just a phase
Or this feeling will haunt me
All the rest of my days

i love that poem. its great! anywayz..i just got back from cecie's. we had fun last nite haha. we were laffing as usual and talkin and stuff and of course i was eating. lol. i always eat when i go to ppl's houses! its like i don't get fed at home or something. haha. i'm a dork. but yea....des is mad at me i think..i don't know why SHE would be mad but w/e. its not like i've done anything. i'm just tired of feeling left out and this time i'm not apologizing for something i didn't do so yea...i miss her tho but yea...i'm bored so i'm gonna go somewhere. blah. talk at y'all later!

--Lara--

You are...(looks)
tall
short
in between
blonde
redhead
brunette
blue-eyed
brown-eyed
green-eyed
hazel eyed
grey eyed
glasses (sometimes)
contacts
freckles
piercings
tattoos
long hair
short hair
med. Hair
thin/fat
braces

Your nationality includes...
Chinese
Indian
Polish
Japanese
Hispanic
Russian
Italian
Scottish
Dutch
German
Irish
French
Texan

Your favorite color(s) are…
red
pink
yellow
black
green
blue
white
purple
brown
orange

Some sports/physical things you like are…
soccer
cheerleading
dancing
lacrosse
field hockey
hockey
football
softball
swimming
wrestling
gymnastics
track/cross country
baseball

Your personality is sometimes...
annoying
talkative
shy
funny
serious
bubbly
spazzy
fun loving
laid back
strict
hyper
weird

The music you like is…
rap/hip-hop
rock (classic rock)
pop
country
punk rock
R&B
Christian
classical
techno

The pets you have are…
cat
dog
lizard
rat
ferret
rabbit
fish
other

Clothes you like to wear are…
plain tshirts
sweatshirts
stockings
belly shirts
high heels
sneakers
jeans
pj pants
tube tops
boxers
thongs
underwear
dresses
mini skirts
long skirts
watches
necklace
hoop earrings
toe socks
flip flops
halter tops
stilletos
band shirts
shorts

How do you like to wear your hair?
Down
ponytail
pigtails
messy bun
half ponytail
scrunched
bun
crimped
with a bandana
French braid
lots of little braids

Your mostly labeled as…
goth
prep
punk
hippie
nerd
i'm just me

You eat…
dessert every night
no meat
diet stuff
healthy foods
junk foods
a lot of carbs

What do you have in your purse?
I don’t have a purse.
gum
cell phone
mints
hairbrush
makeup
cash
credit card
a little dog

A typical friday night=...
mall with your friends
partyin!!
movies
going to the club
staying home alone
babysitting and getting $$
chillin w/ the homies

Currently you are...
in a relationship
single and lovin it
crushing
single and looking for a guy
just broke up

People mostly insult you by calling you a...
bitch
bastard
whore
ho
dike
slut
dog

You shop at...
aeropostale
gap
abercrombie and fitch
hot topic
ross
american eagle
pac sun
strawbridges
delia*s
jc penny
vans
macy’s
victoria’s secret

Online, you use:
lol
sup
=D
lmao
stfu
ty
jk
ttyl
lylas
g2g
^^
T_T

Who do you think is hot?
chad micheal murray
ashton kutcher
johnny depp
orlando bloom
eminem
usher
ryan cabrera
ricky ullman
jesse mccartney
bam margera
BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG!! (hehe i added this one in) 
nick lachey
brad pitt
colin farrel

Did you like this survey?
yeah
no!
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i'm so exhausted. not really sleepy but more body tired and emotionally tired. i'm glad des and casey are together..i really am...but i'm just sick of being there whenever des needs me but she doesn't even think to call me when she isn't sad or depressed. she calls casey all the time. good for her. thats wat gf's do i know. but still. this happens every time she has a bf. i get left behind but u kno wat? its ok. i'm not gonna cave in and drop everything just to spend time with her anymore. my schedule's busy starting right now.

i'm so confused right now. i don't really know who i am. am i someone i want to be? what do others think of me? all these thoughts are running through my head and i'm so lost. i can't find my freakin black nail polish either which is makin me mad. my nails look naked w/o it. lol. w/e. but i'm just so...i dunno the word...damn...o well. i'm just confused lol. stick with that. i hope that someday i can be someone who helps ppl and lets them know that everything is going to be ok. i want to be someone others look up to. i want ppl to say "wow. she's so nice and so friendly. who doesn't like her?" i doubt that'll ever happen tho.  i'm really a bitch. ppl must hate me. they probably just pretend to like me. wtf. i'm so messed up. i don't know how to make ppl happy and a lot of the time i try to please ppl cuz i dont' wanna be alone. w/e. the only ppl i truly like and love in this world are desiree, cecie, travis, maverick, casey, and someone i can't mention in here cuz no one really knows. but yea... i really don't like ppl. its not that anyone's mean to me. its that i hate feeling the pressure of living up to someone else's expectations. like i have to be the best i can be because other ppl want me to. i hate that. ugh. i'm so disgusted with myself right now its not even funny. sometimes i just wanna freakin die. life gets so depressing and confusing. i don't know where to turn and then i turn to God but sometimes i'm just so lost that i feel like i don't want to burden God with my problems. i can't tell anyone my secrets which sux. i feel like a hypocrite. everyone else tells me all their secrets and deepest fears and stuff but i have never in my life told MY story. yea, bits and pieces but what ppl don't know is that there is so much more to me than a smiling blonde haired girl who always looks happy. if i could be compared to anything in this world i would probably be a teardrop in the ocean. no one can find me and bring me back once i'm sad.

i'm listening to ||greenday|| right now. Wake Me Up When September Ends. this song is so true. i love it. if there was a theme song for my life it would be this one. its so beautiful and so sad and just so wonderful.